I knew the moment had arrived, For killing the past and coming back to LIFE…

Finally, the day has arrived…In fact it had arrived a good month before…but it took me a month to understand and analyze the whole sequence of events which took place in the last year or so. Or was it more than this? Seemed like a life-time…ah…

Well, it all began some 2 years ago…i was (or @ least considered myself to be) a guy who knew what he wanted to do in the life.. who believed in nothing but the reason… who never thought that anything was impossible… who always believed in himself…who believed in the strength of his values… and then came the time which with all its realities hit him in the face… and it hit hard enough to break him down... or probably not… this guy lost what he was very proud of… success the way he used to define it…friends… some very good friends… and much more…Within no time he was reduced from a ‘bright’ student to just another failure… His dreams came tumbling down and crashed into his thoughts challenging everything he ever believed in …

But then, as they say…”You can kill a human…but not the human spirit…” And it was this spirit…or may be the survival instinct which made him play one more game… bid once more... believe in himself once again when there was no reason to do so… Because he owed it to everyone who believed in him when even he did not…he owed it to every sob… every tear that had rolled down during the past one year… he owed it to the chaps who had supported him when he needed it badly…n more than anything, he owed it to himself… for coming thru the tough times… n so he made one final bid…one last attempt to break the jinx he had got so used to by now…But this time it paid off… not in a great style… but good enough to get back to the senses… n now he is on the verge of stepping into a new life…something he had dreamt of…

Yes, here i am now… waiting for the new innings of the life to start…

While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime
I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life …